I woke up early this morning with a game plan of sharing so many sessions with you that I hadn’t this past year before the New Year. You know, to get you all excited about booking me sometime in 2018. I am just being honest here. But, I looked over at a book a dear friend gave me that’s simply but overwhelmingly titled, “He Leads Me”, a study of Psalm 23. It’s my favorite verse in the Bible. But, I don’t know if Tanna knew that when she gifted it to me a few weeks ago. What I didn’t realize until just a bit ago was that I skipped right over Psalm 23.1 and landed my first morning preparing my soul for 2018 in Psalm 23.2. Waters of rest. You might wonder how I could skip verse 1 so easily, but if you know me, you know my early mornings start really early. My mind is never clear and I have a tendency to jump on social media and let the world overwhelm my soul first. And, that’s exactly what my plan was this morning. I was going to get on my blog and share with the world the work from this year. Instead, I had someone with a much better plan. Rest, Sara. “He leads us to green pastures. He takes us exactly where we need to be. He knows that on our own we may not choose the best things. We are easily distracted by the world around us, but He leads us to the green pastures that He has prepared for us. He places us in the land that is good for us. We may not always understand His plan, but we can trust that He is bringing us to a good place.”
I picked #nofearnewyear as I welcomed 2017. Some choose a word. I chose a phrase. What I didn’t realize when that was laid heavy on my heart, was that God was going to ask me to fly a lot this year. And, not just in an airplane. It’s a phrase that I stood bravely by 80% of the time. I failed a lot, too. I said no when I should of said yes. I said yes when I should of said no. I said, “I can’t do that!” so many times. But, there is so much growth in the overcoming and in the failing, y’all. So much growth in understanding that sure, I can’t do that on my own. BUT, GOD. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Phil 4.13 So much growth in believing that He wouldn’t set me on a path if He didn’t want me on it in the first place. And, if I fail…it’s probably because it wasn’t meant for me anyway. Even if that means not meant for me right now. EVEN IF that means not meant for me ever. God’s plan is always better.
As I look back on this year I kinda sit back in awe. A year of light and darkness. Our Pastor preached Sunday about how when the night feels the longest it’s when we are closest to the light. And, if I could choose how people remember me it’s that even when it was dark in my life, God’s light overwhelmed me in a way that no one could ever explain. That even when it was loud, chaotic, and scary, that peace was my center. It’s taken me a long time to get here. But, I am so grateful to be here.
When I think back on 2017, I think of all the captured life. Even the last moments on this side of heaven for one. That was one of the hardest days of my life doing this work. I think of new life and first moments. I think of first words, first clap, first giggle, first step. I think of new homes, new journeys, and restoration with some. I think of big families that come together for one day because they know it matters and that the conflicts don’t. I think of those babies in Haiti every single day. I feel my heart and how it beats differently since that trip. And, I think about what it will be like to go back next year. I think about all the life captured in 2017 and how much of your beautiful life you have hanging on your walls to cherish forever. And, I think about my own boys. Every single moment of every single day. That I do this work for God and one day they will get to tell their own children about it all.
Not sharing often here was intentional. I wanted to put my focus where it needed to be. I am so thankful you guys let me be me and tell you all about what God has done. I can’t wait to share what He does in 2018. Even if He calls me to rest a lot more. And, if you’re wondering what my word or phrase will be for the New Year. It’s remain. Remaining faithful. When I asked siri this morning synonyms for remain she said : REST, stay, continue, stay on, persist, be, abide.
God is amazing.
Happy New Year, My Friends. So much love from me to you.
Thank you for continuing to call on me to capture your life. It’s a gift that I will never take for granted.
Love, Sara Rose